DiiGMaa

I’ve been questioned by many dear friends and readers for the reason of my sudden lack of posting.. At first I would make up excuses.. I traveled.. I got back.. I got buzy.. I’m lazy.. which all had a significant attribution to my “silent mode”.. but then I came to the realization that I am merely lost.. lost for words.. no words or language could express what I had to say.. a few more days went by and still no post… no sign of DiiGMaa..

She was gone… Secluded herself in the sanctuary of her empty lonesome home and disappeared.. She stopped going out.. stopped answering calls and was just LOST..

Not that I don’t have anything to say.. bil3ax, regardless of the many posys that I have decided to save as drafts rather than post them, I finally found what it was that I’ve been unconcsiously trying to say.. I’ve been trying to hold it in for too long… almost a year has passed and still I smile and act like the strong woman erevyone tells me they want to be like..

I still have nightmares about it.. They haunt me even when I’m awake.. we still haven’t moved.. and the memory of him in every room of the house kills me..

I found the words that I want to say:
You never had a bite of the cake I got you on your 27th birthday.. just 2 days before you died… in my arms…