Dear God,
November 20, 2006
Disclaimer: This is not a mockery of my God.. This is the way we communicate.. We are close that way.. I’m no Joan of Arc.. But I sometimes like speaking my mind to others.. even God.. and if you can’t handle that I’m writing a letter to God or how I chose to express myself toward God.. then don’t read on… and no hate comments.. mo nagi9ny o maly khulg.. Just deal with it..
Dear God,
Remember this morning when I called my Dad ? well actually it’s past midnight now.. so I mean yesterday..
Let me just rewrite it to save you the hassle of looking it up:
DaDiYo: Hala 7abebty.. ya a7la 9aba7 khair
DiiGMaa: 7imdila 3al salama baba.. I hope your well.. you cold ? I was worried you’ll freeze.. how is he ? plz tell me.. did you talk to him ?
DaDiYo: allah esalmich 7abebty.. wallah yabooch I’m in shock.. he’s worse than I imagined.. and tomorrows surgery doesn’t look very promising after days in a coma state.. The doctors say there’s a 10% chance of success..
DiiGMaa: I’m sure he can hear you Baba.. I’m gonna pray for him but can you say good bye for me just incase.. plz tell him I love him..
DaDiYo: Inshalah 7abebty I had a long talk with him.. I know he can hear me.. and I told him we all want him to stay strong.. I’ll send your love..
Well, I know through out the course of the past year you’ve been trying to show me that life is tuff and nothing is eternal.. I know you’re trying to make me strong by exposing me to the harsh test of life.. (if the word trying offends you.. I’m sorry.. I’m just short on word choices today.. You know me better.. You know how I get all choked up when I’m upset) But anyways.. Don’t you think you should take it down a notch and give me a break.. I mean there are other ppl you know.. I ain’t special.. I get it.. So I’m asking for a vacation here.. I won’t be sinful and I won’t even go anywhere.. Just need some time off from your harsh learning’s.. and this so called life that’s merely a temporary layover till we make it over there… wherever you are.. That’s if I even earn enough credits through good deeds to get myself a ticket there.. I’ll settle for world traveler at this rate.. This letter is probably not gonna get me past baggage claim right ?? Well anyways you taught me to be compassionate and forgiving.. and plz feel for me today and ignore my bitching (oppppss sorry God I don’t mean any disrespect.. but again my word choice is limited today and that term seems most appropriate for my current state of being.. remember forgiving and compassionate)..
And God, my real reason for this letter is to make my Uncle better.. You know how I always say “God plz make this happen for me and I’ll become a nun and dedicate my life to you but in an Islamic way” ok I figured you knew I was just trying to manipulate you and I was being all selfish.. But this time.. I ask you to save him for my Fathers sake.. And my Uncles children and his Grandchildren and his Great Grandchildren.. (Ya7aila my Uncle and the 3 generations he has taken care of).. Yeah.. Could you do that for me God, Big Boss of all Man Kind, the Creator of all that is in this world and life.. Could ya ? For my Dad’s sake..
If not, then I understand, C’est la vie.. and all..
Ok I’ll let you go back to the other billions of ppl you’re looking over.. and Kudos for being you (I’m kissing up now aren’t I ?.. aren’t I supposed to anyways)..
Ok one tiny thing.. If I make it to heaven.. Can my little patch in Eden be central park ? And can you throw in the city around it.. Coz to be honest I don’t know if I can handle the countryside for all eternity…
All my love..
DiiGMaa
P.S.
Compassion and forgiveness, the two things you taught me best..
and if you do decide to take him.. be gentle.. take care of him plz..
UPDATE: Mum says my Gran’ma (her mum) is in the ICU too..
Dear God,
Please…
Allah yi7futha inshallah. sweetie, tara i7na 3abd allah, w ina ilayhi raji3oon.. we dont control our lives, nor souls, we owe it to God sub7ana w ta3ala.. thats all i can say..
allah e3eena ur uncle oo ya7fetha enshalla, oo hatha 7al ildenya wel aqlabeya maraw eb theroofich wa93ab men theroofich, wallah e3eenich, bes killa thekray rabech oo golay il7emdilla, oo allah eshafee yadetech inshalla, stay strong digma .. oo ina allah mostajeb il do3a’.. allah karem inshala
I hope from the bottom of my heart that both will be OK,
hang in there, and pray for them.
allah y5aleehom likom inshallah oo yi6awil ib a3marhom.
Thats life for you, everything happens for a reason i am sure. God knows best.
Stay strong, “button”
take care
Oh, sweetie, I am so sorry for your suffering. And sometimes, when we pray, the answer is that He removes their pain by taking them to be with him. Painful for us . . . sweet for the taken.
but best of all, keep talking to Him. He loves to hear your voice and he IS with you, always.
Im speechless…im teary wallah, inshallah both will be ok…
I loved how u spoke to God…
No one is more merciful on us more than God; God is more merciful than our own parents.
May God do the best for you and your family.
Allah y7afthum o y6awil ib3amrhum inshala
Allah igawimhum bil salama inshallah. I’ll pray for them.
Inshalla alah esahil 3alaikum.
I understand where you are coming from, and I truly admire your honesty in your statement. Digmoo you are being as truthful as you can, and your saying it as your thinking it.
But you have to be strong, I have had family pass away in the same situation, my cousin passed away when I was young, and I couldnt believe it in the beginning, bes you just have to be strong o inshall things will workout, kilshay ib eed alah.
:( 7bebty!
i have nothing to say actually
i just want to hug u and pray.
ma etshofoon shar o enshallah allah egawma bel salamah, yerja3likom a7san men gabel.
:/
Dear all,
Thank you for your kind words.. It is so sweet of you to be supportive and all your prayers were warmly appreciated..
wallah feekom il khair o ma qa9artow..
(you’re all amazing in a nutshell ;P)
To those new visitors, welcome to my Virtual Getaway.. and I promise to make it up to you all with a more upbeat post soon :)
Latest Uppdates:
Uncle has survived the surgery, but is under observation til he is stable.. so il7amdilla
Mum is traveling today to see Grandma.. allah Kareem.
7imdillah 3ala salamata oo inshallah yigoom bil salama,
hope ur grandma itgoom bil salama ba3ad
hang in there button
DiiGMoooo,
walaw :) (tharb il lebnany)
ma sawaina shay wallah
awal shay, 7medallah 3ala salmat ur uncle oo inshallah yegoooom bil salamah.. oo Allah yeshafee ur grandma…
Thani shay, u r special & will always be!!!
thaleeth shay, sometimes God puts the obstacles in u r way to test ur faith… So, u have to be strong and survive all them with ur head held high! Everything is thats happening to u is for a reason… u might not notice it right away, but eventually u will.. Its only a phase and it will go away…
If u ever need anything, im here for u :)
7amdila 3ala salamat ur uncle. hope ur grandma gets better soons. my heart goes out to you and your family. I know this sounds like a cliche but having a strong faith really does help at times like this.
“I don’t know if I can handle the countryside for all eternity…” how come am reading my two-days-old thought here?
My prayers are with you.
inshalla egoom bil salamah! Please keep us posted! :)
الله يقومهم بالسلامة انشاء الله
Thank you all for your support and Kindness..
each and every one of you has been so kind and I will truly appreciate your sweet words always..
I have not commented on this post individually because i really can’t bring myself to say much.. there has been no improvement in my uncles or Grans health.. and I will keep praying for their longitivity..
Thank your all again so much ;)
*Group Hug*
Ma eerid el qada2, ghair el do3a2… so keep praying.. Rabbech Kareem.
Our hearts & prayers are with you… wil 7mdl’Allah 3ala kil 7al..
“Allahuma innee la as2aluka rad el qada2.. wa inma as2aluka al lu6f feeh”
when u least expect it.. and when u think that all the unlucky things in life are meant to be for u.. things will get better.
sub7an allah, everything happens for a reason even if u don’t realise it at the time..
allah e9aberkom ou yer7am 7al your relatives ;;** waiting for thye good news..
Allah yigawimhum belsalameh. Whatever happens, never lose your faith in God, he knows what he’s doing and he has a good reason for it.
omtantoo7 & Elijah:
Welcome to my virtual home :)
Thank you so so much for your sweet kind words on your first visit here.. allah kareem o yezaakum allah khair 3ala kalamkum il6ayib o da3watkum il7ilwa..
mashkooreen ;)
I really hope enna alla ygawemhum besalama..I really understand how u feel now..
and btw..I’ve never thought of writing a letter to god..but ur letter and the u communicate with god is what most of us do deep inside us..i mean..when i pray to god..i do talk to him..i don’t know how to say “el ad3eya” taken from e sunna..bcuz i can’t memorize them all..and also bcuz i like to say it the way i want..3ashan te6la3 men el galb…
ma ba6awel 3alaich..allah ykahleehum lech enshalla..we gawemhum be salama..
This was so incredinly touching, it actually got me choked up.
Ba3ad 3omri…
I dont know you, but just what you wrote shows there’s so much faith there. Whatever happens, whatEVER ends up happening, I have a hunch you’ll be ok habeebty.
Itha thaag 5ilgich and you can’t stand it anymore, igraii Yasin. Read slowly word, for word. Trust me, you’ll feel better afterwards.
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