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My friend “Z” is due to have a baby at the end of the month. Everyday we talk and recollect how 9 months have gone by so quick and most of her agony and struggle is almost over. Soon she will be a mother, and things will change for real. After I closed the phone yesterday I started thinking how much I love this girl and how I know she’ll be the best mother ever. But mostly how, and I quote her, she’s a “baby having a baby”. She’s responsible and mature and has been around kids for years and knows what she’s doing. Yet I can’t help think that once she has this baby she’ll no longer just be my smashing gal pal.. she’ll be a sexy mama !! That’s not my point though.. my point is.. since she got married I have never thought of her as a Mrs.. I don’t know why or how I managed to believe the entire past year that she has a live in boyfriend and they’re having a baby together with the blessings of their folks :P It took me a while I guess for it to sink in :P

I love you “Z” and I wish you the best you tiny weeeeeeeny person with a huuuuuuuuge personality !! I’ll always be here for you and the baby ;*

Now getting to the real point of this bloody post. When “Z” got pregnant I went through a phase.

• I started having cravings
• I was overly sensitive
• I was always peeing :P
• Many of my purchases were maternity clothes (yes for me to wear).
• and of course I gained weight :P

This went on for months and I remember thinking a few months ago:

“If there’s no baby coming out of me then why the hell am I going through this?”

Ok I exaggerate a little.. just a little.. But I did feel pregnant and I do go through plenty of phases.

So currently I’m a Rock star!

Yes… I am a Rock Star..

• It’s all that grunge I’ve been listening to for years.
• All the piercings I’ve gotten along the way.
• All the biker leather jackets.
• Ripped jeans.
• Studded and graphic Tee’s.
• Red Goth nail polish.
• The Jewelry, chains, buckled belts, spiked chokers (not) and all the accessories.
• Mostly, my infamous black dark, deep and mysterious eyeliner.
• (ok I know that doesn’t cut it as a Rock Star but I’ve been making noise on my brothers Guitar and also failed immensely at an attempt to play a friends drums)
• and my latest infatuation for Chris Cornell

Now the funny thing is.. “N” used to always nag about Audioslave and Chris Cornell for years. And even though I’d get him T-shirts and stuff of his all time favorite band, I never actually sat down and heard a single song; till the end of 2006 when he was kind enough to burn me a few CD’s and since then I realized what he was talking about. And no it wasn’t the James Bond song that drew me in… it was “Like a Stone” by Audioslave.

Watch this amazing live version of “Like a Stone”:

P.s.

For those that want to see the actual video of “Like a Stone” – click here.

“N”, though you’ll probably never come across this blog and never know about this post.. You are my only constant in the past decade and you’ve always been there to toughen me up and tell me to stop sulking and straighten up. And you manage to do it in the most amazingly caring way. Even though you literally say “shut up and straighten up” :P..

I can’t live without you ;*