DiiGMaa

TRIP

Seriously ?
Yeah not kidding !
Actually I’m not off on another trip I just got back from another trip :P
I didn’t have the face to post before traveling.. as well as time issues !

I went to Qatar, for a wedding.. had a blast.. stayed at the Four Seasons.. and came back with the flu !
I’m typing this while tucked under a cozy blanky at my sisters house.. didn’t feel like staying home alone seeming my folks are outta town.. I hate this sick feeling ! I can’t smell, taste, and my nose is so red and sore !

Anyways, I am officially jinxed !
Remember when I was an active poster ? well now I’m lucky if I get something down once every month or two ! Huft !

I’m a busy gal ok ! but I miss this place.. I really really do…

TIP

Being the patient person that I am, the only thing I can’t tolerate is rudeness.. lately I realised I have a very limited tolerance for STUPID ppl too.. I used to pity them before for their ignorance.. but lately I really don’t have the time for it.. silly buggers !

I can’t handle cold hearted, emotionless ppl who take forever to express themselves even though they don’t mean to come across in such a manner but they end up doing so as a habit and when they do finally make an effort they expect some gratitude for it.. I say go shove a sock in it for Pete’s sake either do it with a good will or bloody well keep it to yourself !

How many chances do you give a person to prove themselves ? 1 ? 2 ? a week of patience ? 2 ? a month ?

I say twice, 3 times is enough.. otherwise why waste time waiting for something worthy when it’s just not in them !

CLIP

Being sick and in bed all day.. the best way to kill time is obviously watch an Indian flick..

enjoy this clip from Jodhaa Akbar:

Funny.. only a few days ago I was wearing a Sari for a Henna Night prior to the wedding I attended.. and I was thinking to myself I haven’t seen an Indian movie in ages.. strange how things fall into place without planning right ?

Whatever !!! I know the clip is mushy and all lovey dovey… just deal with it ok.. my estrogen levels are high !!!

(Pooj… I miss you)

Disclaimer: This is not a mockery of my God.. This is the way we communicate.. We are close that way.. I’m no Joan of Arc.. But I sometimes like speaking my mind to others.. even God.. and if you can’t handle that I’m writing a letter to God or how I chose to express myself toward God.. then don’t read on… and no hate comments.. mo nagi9ny o maly khulg.. Just deal with it..

It’s been a while since I last wrote you.. Ironic actually.. coz I have no faith today.. I have no spirit.. I have no compassion or sensation of any sort.. I feel numb.. I feel empty.. hollow..

My chest hurts.. I have that sinking feeling right at the core of me.. I’m embracing the pain.. it’s strangely keeping me company.. I keep losing my breathe trying to hold back my tears, all choked up.. I keep gasping for air and my lungs are tired.. the pain is tickling me all through to the back of my lungs.. I can feel them expanding and it feels like I am compressing on a sore bruise with every inhale.. my shoulders are heavy.. my knees are weak.. my nails hurt.. yes my nails hurt..

How powerful you are.. you even make my tiny nails hurt when I am sad..

Sad.. is that what I am today ? I’m in such a blur.. how powerful you are to take him away.. yet you leave his memory to linger at my very existence with every day the past 2 years..

It’s been 2 years.. he woulda been 29 now.. young and full of life.. 2 years of waiting, waiting for what I don’t know.. maybe I was waiting for reality to sink in.. maybe I was waiting to forget.. mostly I think I was waiting for him to come back.. or to meet him in anyway possible.. no matter what the odds..

how powerful you are to make me hurt so much.. enough.. watching his last breath was more than enough.. my own flesh and blood.. the closest person to me.. my mentor and guild in this world since the day I was born.. you took away my brother.. you took away a huge part of.. can’t you see how hollow I am.. I beg you enough.. let me be..

I miss him..

so much..

a day never passes without the thought of him..

My eyes are sore.. my voice is hurt.. Curse’d this week curse’d this week.. I hate it.. I hate it !!

Love,

D.

… … perfect.

A couple of weeks back, I was having a discussion with a friend about how no one is perfect and that peoples imperfections are what make them perfect.. I was taken aback when he said “you are perfect”.. obviously I replied instantly with the overly used common “no one is perfect”.. then that’s when he said, “but to me, you are perfect”..

It wasn’t the fact that he flattered me to bits with those words.. I wasn’t surprised per se coz he thought of me so highly, I’m not that confident but I do embrace my imperfections and make them the best of me.. it was the fact that he used those exact words. I had heard them before and always felt flattered, but this time it was different. This time I instantly smiled and thought of the scene from Love Actually. My Favorite part of the movie that I love actually:

Now the reason why I thought of this Movie when I heard those words was simply coz only a few days before that incident I had another Love Actually encounter that I must say is one of the sweetest things ever. I was at a friends house at a gathering with the girls. I met my friends younger brother and was stunned at how much he resembled my own brother. Anyways, there was a lot of picture taking and videos shot of the lovely evening. The next day I met up with my friend and she showed me a small clip of the video her brother was supposedly taking of “us”. She told me that she thinks her little brother has a crush on me and when watching the video I would notice that he had focused on keeping the camera on me the whole time. I was so flattered, so cute really. And that’s when I recalled this scene from Love Actually.

Don’t you just love it when life reflects art ?

I’m sure many of you have related to shows and movies before.. I can list so many.. but this one was cute, and it happened all in the same time frame which made it ever so special..

Love actually,

D